
I am not going to tell an untruth when David and I named this child, I knew I wanted his name to be Joshua before I even knew he was a boy. I wanted Joshua, because it was a Biblical name. I didn't choose this name because I knew the Bible that well, because I didn't. Just as with Hannah's name, it made me feel good saying our children are named after some pretty important Bible characters. As much as it embarrasses me, I didn't know these two people from God's word until I had to totally give up appearances and get to know my Father by the way He takes care of His people. I had to read His word. Tonight I looked up the days it has been since I've seen my child. Upon seeing the number 767, the tears began flowing. I hurt. Thankfully during the last 767 days I have come to know Joshua from the Bible much better. As you know, God used him to lead the Israelites into the promised land. Like many of us, he was apprehensive about such a large task. God knew this and tells him to be strong and courageous. He promised to be with Joshua and His people wherever they went. While rereading Joshua 1 again tonight, I was reminded that He keeps that same promise to us. Even though He calls us into difficult circumstances, He is there to carry us through whatever it is. He even prepares us before we realize what our need will be. On day 767 without my Joshua, God knew that I would need to be reminded of His warrior Joshua. I am so thankful that God looks past our appearances and knows our hearts. I am also thankful that no matter what our struggle is, He will never leave us. And I am most thankful that on day 767 I feel a little more strong and courageous, because I am trusting that He is preparing me for the rest of my days until I am reunited with my Joshua in Heaven.