chrisine

Normally when I'm writing to you the words come much easier, but today I'm finding it very hard. I have not heard your voice, touched your hair, hugged your neck or any of the things that mamas get to do for their children in one year. Although I am happy that you've made it to the place all of our hearts long to be, my heart is broken. Sometimes I feel like it would be so much easier to just give up, but it's then that I remember your determination. You were always one of the strongest-willed babies, children and then young adults I have ever met. We used to joke about Hannah being so quiet, because you were adamant about getting in your say. It turns out that God knew I would need to look back on your personality a lot for Him to carry me through this painful journey. Isn't it amazing what He gives us to help us make it through this life we live? He blessed your daddy and me with two wonderful children that continue to teach us things every day. Today, I am going to use your determination to remind people that "through Christ all things are possible." There surely is no way a mama could face a day of living without her child, unless she knew that God had him or her. God gave us you, and He took you home to glorify His name. I remain adamant about that. So, thank you JD for being persistent in your life here on earth. I want to be just like you. And thank You, God for knowing I would need this strong-willed child to help continue to witness to people in Your name. Happy Heavenly Birthday, sweet boy. I love you to the moon.